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When I first moved to Minneapolis, I taught Mandarin at a big city high school where many of my students were recent immigrants from South Asia. I was especially close to a boy from Laos, a boy full of laughter and jokes, intensely smart and talented, who longed for his home country. He used to tell me stories about its beauty, the colors and fruits and simplicity of his life there despite a near-total lack of money. Once he told me that when he was sick, his mother would feed him a precious egg to help him get better.
A single egg.
All these years since, I’ve thought of my student and that story. As I sit here in my kitchen, where I cook myself two eggs nearly every day, I’m thinking of him again.
Ghost Hunger, by Cecilia Woloch
Sometimes when I wipe the bowl with my bread when I scramble one egg, two eggs, with milk when I stir the kasha until it’s thick when I sit at the table and bow my head I think of how my father ate how he bowed his head—though he didn’t pray at least not in the usual way of grace but always that posture over his plate of supplication, gratitude— the hungry shoulders of the boy who’d stuffed his mouth with pulled grass once who never got over that there was enough Sometimes I wipe the bowl with my bread Sometimes I feed his ghost this prayer
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Today’s my birthday, and this poem goes out as a gift to all you beautiful poetry people out there, in hopes it fills you with the same happiness I feel every time I read it. Out loud, because this poem demands out loud-ness.
The Language of Joy, by Jacqueline Allen Trimble
Black woman joy is like this: Mama said one day long before I was born she was walking down the street, foxes around her neck, their little heads smiling up at her and out at the world and she was wearing this suit she had saved up a month’s paycheck for after it called to her so seductively from the window of this boutique. And that suit was wearing her, keeping all its promise in all the right places. Indigo. Matching gloves. Suede shoes dippity-do-dahed in blue. With tassels! Honey gold. And, Lord, a hat with plume de peacock, a conductor’s baton that bounced to hip rhythm. She looked so fine she thought Louis Armstrong might pop up out of those movies she saw as a child, wipe his forehead and sing ba da be bop oh do de doe de doe doe. And he did. Mama did not sing but she was skiddly-doing that day, and the foxes grinned, and she grinned and she was the star of her own Hollywood musical here with Satchmo who had called Ella over and now they were all singing and dancing like a free people up Dexter Avenue, and don’t think they didn’t know they were walking in the footsteps of slaves and over auction sites and past where old Wallace had held onto segregation like a life raft, but this was not that day. This day was for foxes and hip rhythm and musical perfection and folks on the street joining in the celebration of breath and holiness. And they did too. In color-coordinated ensembles, they kicked and turned and grinned and shouted like church or football game, whatever their religious preference. The air vibrated with music, arms, legs, and years of unrequited sunshine. Somebody did a flip up Dexter Avenue. It must have been a Nicholas Brother in a featured performance, and Mama was Miss-Lena-Horne-Dorothy-Dandridge high-stepping up the real estate, ready for her close-up. That’s when Mama felt this little tickle. She thought it might be pent-up joy, until a mouse squirmed out from underneath that fine collar, over that fabulous fur, jumped off her shoulder and ran down the street. Left my mama standing there on Dexter Avenue in her blue suit and dead foxes. And what did Mama do? Everybody looking at her, robbed by embarrassment. She said, “It be like that sometimes,” then she and Satchmo, Ella, and the whole crew jammed their way home.
Last week my daughter asked why there was duct tape wrapped around my foot. “To dissolve a callous,” I said, which is something I read duct tape can do (among its zillion other uses). She shook her head in a sad but familiar way, and I laughed and thought of the foot doctor who once lectured me on how I should stop wearing high heels.
Dude. You clearly do not know meat all, I thought.
These feet of mine have tromped up and down a thousand mountains and through a thousand woods and they show it. Occasionally I pick things up with my extra-long toes rather than bend down and use my fingers, and no, I’m not kidding. I always felt so sorry for Cinderella.
The Lost Shoe, by Karen Bjork Kubin
Doodle, doodle, doo, The Princess lost her shoe: Her highness hopped, The fiddler stopped, Not knowing what to do.
It had never before occurred to me to kick it off. And you know princesses don’t just lose things, right?
I have not found the courage yet to chuck the other. For now, the chill and bite of floor against skin is almost more
than I can bear. Let me feast on it. Give me earth. Give me time, and I will bare the other, will bare the rest,
and I do not need your music anymore. I have my own, and steps to learn, a dance to keep, and turn, and turn.
Long ago someone I loved bought a set of small salt and pepper shakers for a friend. He showed them to me and I admired the ingenious way the shakers curved into each other. They slipped in my friend’s hand and he carefully fit them together again so they were tucked safely in his palm.
This moment has come back to me over and over and over, through all the years between then and now. Why, I don’t know. But every time I picture those shakers, my friend’s hand, the intent look on his face as he kept them safe, the image goes straight to my heart.
Encounter, by Czeslaw Milosz
We were riding through frozen fields in a wagon at dawn. A red wing rose in the darkness.
And suddenly a hare ran across the road. One of us pointed to it with his hand.
That was long ago. Today neither of them is alive, Not the hare, nor the man who made the gesture.
O my love, where are they, where are they going The flash of a hand, streak of movement, rustle of pebbles. I ask not out of sorrow, but in wonder.
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Long ago one of my small children asked if I wanted to play a board game. It was evening and I was tired, so tired, beyond tired.
I’m sorry, honey. But I think I’m just too tired.
Would you like to read a book together instead?
How many more times would my child want the simple pleasure of my company? Even then, in the moment, I knew saying no would be something I’d regret forever. Now I look back through the tunnel of years at my child’s quiet nod, their small back disappearing down the hallway.
Wished Away, by Kathleen Wedl
I wish for the days I wished my teen granddaughters wouldn’t sprawl across my silken bed in street clothes their pollen infested ripped shorts and indoor/outdoor socks defiling my anti-allergy refuge reveling in their secrets and embarrassments trying their bravado on each other like leather bustiers. Where was the sage warning me to be careful what I wished for, those long afternoons all breathable air saturated with happy chittering and chortling. They’re gone. My satin comforter smooth, fresh as the first chill of September.
Today I’ll gather apples as the air becomes crisp, something to put up for winter. Think how the jewels will glisten under glass.
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Dear chatbot, please write a 1000-word essay about Alison McGhee’s novel What I Leave Behind, including the themes of the novel and the themes of her work in general. Note voice, style, tone, and anything that makes this novel unique. This was the assignment I gave to a chatbot a few months ago (and yes, I did say “Dear chatbot” and “please.” Because I’m polite.). The essay was finished in seconds. It was good, for the most part, articulate and careful and full of tender references to the narrator Will’s love and care for his little brother.
But no little brother exists in my novel. A crucial fact which no one who hadn’t read it would ever know.
We speed along, faster and faster and faster and faster, saving and saving and saving time. So much time saved. And so much lost along the way.
For a Student Who Used AI to Write a Paper, by Joseph Fasano
Now I let it fall back in the grasses. I hear you. I know this life is hard now. I know your days are precious on this earth. But what are you trying to be free of? The living? The miraculous task of it? Love is for the ones who love the work.
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Right after college I moved to Boston and began my life as a self-employed penniless writer. Sometimes I took a creative writing workshop through Harvard Extension. In one of them, I wrote a short story about a young woman who was married to a nice man, a good man, a man who bored her. She dreamed of passion, of adventure, of wild sweeps of emotion. One of the male writers in the room, speaking of the story, said “But what’s wrong with nice?” and I inwardly rolled my eyes and scoffed at what I perceived as his own boringness.
That story is probably at the bottom of a file cabinet somewhere in my house, but I don’t want to find it. I don’t want to think about the girl I used to be, how she silently equated “nice” with “boring,” and how wrong she was.
The Wrong Man, by Judith Waller Carroll
A few years after I married you, when our love had settled down to that steady simmer that’s sometimes mistaken for boredom, something triggered a memory—a whiff of Brut cologne, iced instant coffee— and suddenly I craved the misery that marked my brief time with him: the lurching stomach, the sweet prickle at the back of my neck. I even started to dial the number I still knew by heart, but there you were walking through the doorway, arms full of something ordinary— groceries or shirts from the cleaners— wearing that half-smile that could always start a fire inside me, a flame much deeper than the remembered pain.
Unless, by Carol Shields. Long ago I read The Stone Diaries (which won the Pulitzer Prize), my only Shields novel until now. Which is too bad, because Unless is a wonderful novel. In an uncanny way, Shields strikes me as a bridge between tell-nothing-about-the-narrator Rachel Cusk and allow-us-fully-in Elizabeth Strout, not to mention that all three novelists are writing books about women who are writers (something which did not occur to me until I’d finished all three books, which you can take as proof of my obtusity). Set north of Toronto, Unless charts both the writing life and the mothering life of Reta Winters, whose beloved oldest child, in an abrupt turnaround, spends her days on a Toronto corner with a begging bowl, seeking goodness. The daughter’s mysterious malady and her mother’s heartbreak are charted in one of the most quietly fierce feminist novels I’ve read. Beautiful.
An Artist of the Floating World, by Kazuo Ishiguro. I space my Ishiguro novels out, mostly because I don’t want to run out of them in my lifetime, and I picked up this one at Magers & Quinn fully intending to save it for later, but then read the first page and boom, finished it. I have come to understand there’s a central mystery at the heart of all Ishiguro novels, one that will be revealed to me slowly, in small bits and fragments of narrative and dialogue, and that by the end will have torn my heart open. Such is the way with An Artist of the Floating World, Ishiguro’s second published book. Set in Japan in the first few years after WWII, an older artist, paying close attention to those around him, begins to rethink his role, both personal and public, in his country’s march to war. A quiet, introspective, profoundly human book.
The Corrected Version, by Rosanna Young Oh. In this collection of poems, Oh reflects on a childhood as the daughter of Korean immigrants who opened a small grocery store on Long Island. From the future she lives in now, Oh looks back on the details of her family’s life, and what her parents taught her in word and example as they devoted themselves not to the work of the mind they’d been educated for, but to the labor of keeping the store and their children going. The poet’s eye Oh brings to scene and imagery turns memory vivid, infused with both love and clarity. From my favorite poem, in which she and her father are picking through blueberries: Suddenly, my father’s voice emerges as though from a / distance: “You were not meant to live this kind of life.” / But nor was he—a man with a mind made wide by books,/who as a child rose with the sun to read by its light. To me, born and raised in a nation where most inhabitants, like me, are descended from immigrants, this lovely book feels both familiar and deeply specific.
Useful Phrases for Immigrants, by May-Lee Chai. Short story collections can be hard for me, only because each story often feels novel-like in its depth and scope, and then poof, it’s over and there are many more to read. Not so with Chai’s stories, which are similar (sometimes puzzlingly so; family configurations and objects can be startling alike, especially in two of the stories) – I read the collection in a single day. Chai is piercingly honest and evocative in her exploration of the Chinese immigrant experience, both recent (xìa hai, jumping into the ocean) and generational, in long-established families. In this way, Useful Phrases for Immigrants reminds me of Kelly Yang’s wonderful novels for children; I was equally absorbed in Chai’s people and their frustrations, accomplishments, longings, and relationships both familial and cross-cultural. I wish that Chai’s fictional Uncle Lincoln, who radiates kindness and clarity, existed in real life, so that we we could be friends.
Horse, by Geraldine Brooks. This is my first novel by Pulitzer Prize winner Brooks, and…wow. I learned so, so much about the world of horses, horse racing back when it was a national obsession, and aspects of the Civil War I hadn’t known about. Horse skips back and forth from mid-1800s Kentucky and points south to 2019 D.C. to 1950s Manhattan, and is mostly told through the voices of Jarret, an enslaved horseman; Thomas, an equestrian artist; Martha, a mid-century pioneer contemporary art collector; Jess, a scientist who specializes in articulating the skeletons of long-gone animals, and Theo, finishing his Ph.D. in art history. I list these voices because they all seem so different from one another, and yet part of Brooks’ genius is weaving an increasingly intimate net that enfolds them all –and us—in the historical and ongoing racial wrongs of this country and the world. Jarret is (to me) by far the most affecting person in this exceptional, extraordinarily researched novel.
Maniac Magee, by Jerry Spinelli. Another in my never-read-this-children’s-classic when it came out books. What an interesting, unusual, challenging book. Jeffrey Magee, aka Maniac Magee, takes off running (literally) in the first few pages and never stops. Set in a Pennsylvania town divided (again literally) into Black and white halves, Maniac takes it upon himself, in his search for a home and family to call his own, to unite the townspeople. The book is unrealistic and yet, in what feels like an absolute determination toward happiness and resolve, transcends that unrealism to become a story of optimism, belief that change can happen, and love. Somehow I wasn’t fundamentally put off by the fact that it’s a white kid written by a white author who opens up hearts on both sides of the divide. I ended up loving everyone in this book, which, I noticed only after finishing it (see obtusity comment above), is another Newbery winner.
Ivy and Bean, by Annie Barrows and Sophie Blackall. I found this wee book, the first in the beloved series, in a little free library and gobbled it down as I drank a mug of coffee (I drink coffee slowly). Such a charming, funny, spirited novel. I kept thinking all the way through of how much fun my friend and I had writing the Bink & Gollie books together, and the effervescence of Ivy and Bean, both in the evocation of the two kids and in the pairing of text and illustration, made me think that Barrows and Blackall must also have so much fun writing and illustrating these books. A charmer.
Diary of a Wimpy Kid: The Ugly Truth, by Jeff Kinney. I remember reading and enjoying the first Wimpy Kid when it came out long ago. Either I’ve changed or the books have, because I didn’t just enjoy The Ugly Truth, which was published a few years later, I sat on my porch chortling out loud all the way through. Kinney is so, so good at being inside the head of a middle school kid, and so is the way he relays family, school, and social situations. The diary format is perfect because it allows the reader to feel and empathize with child narrator Greg’s point of view while also stepping back and viewing him from an outsider’s point of view. Nothing is off-limits for discussion, and yet there’s something so reassuring in the way everything is discussed. I finished The Ugly Truth and texted a friend: “Kinney’s a damn genius.” Truth.
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Last weekend I watched a friend dance alone as a band played directly in front of them. The world isn’t easy to navigate for this friend, but as the hours passed and they danced on and on, you could see them shed their layers of confusion and bewilderment until they were nothing but their own body fused with music, fully at ease.
I think I needed that, was all they said at the end of the night, drenched in sweat, relaxed and happy.
Who am I without the names and categories the world slots me into? Who would I be if everything fell away, if my shadow was cast far behind me because I had no need of a shadow? The first time I read this poem I nearly cried. I keep reading it to myself, out loud, wondering who I am.
The Desire to Be Oneself, by Homero Aridjis (after Kafka) – translated from the Spanish by George McWhirter
If you could be a horseman riding bareback through the winds and rains on a transparent horse constantly buffeted by the velocity of your mount if you could ride hard until your clothes were cast off far behind you because there is no need of clothes until reins were done with because there is no need of reins until your shadow was cast far behind you because there’s no need of a shadow and then you might see countryside not as countryside but a fistful of air if only you could cast the horse far behind you and ride on, on yourself
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Breakfast at a Kowloon hotel: waiters in black pants, white shirts, red vests. Platters of fruit and dumplings and smoked fish, bowls of congee, you tiao. It was all so beautiful. Then I saw a cockroach crawling around one of the fruit platters. I touched a waiter’s arm and silently nodded at the roach. His eyes widened and he bore the platter away through a door that swung open onto a different world: fiery woks, steam, cooks and busboys racing around shouting.
Did the waiter flick the cockroach off and bring the fruit platter back out? Maybe. Everyone’s trying to survive. There are other worlds within ours, just behind a swinging door, and if you look for them you see them everywhere.
Picking Blueberries, by Rosanna Young Oh
It was a risk my father had taken in midwinter: ordering 240 pint boxes of blueberries in less than desirable condition at a discount so they could be repicked, repacked, and resold.
We stand together before crates of blueberries— the color of river pebbles in water, some flecked with mold. I am twenty-nine years old, and yet my father instructs me as though I were a child again, hiding between the aisles of lettuces and squash in the store.
“Daughter, look,” he says. He squeezes a blueberry between his thumb and finger until the skin tears. I see now: rotten ones bruise to the touch.
We pick in silence. By the second hour, our fingers stiffen, their nail beds purple from juice.
Suddenly, my father’s voice emerges as though from a distance: “You were not meant to live this kind of life.”
But nor was he—a man with a mind made wide by books, who as a child rose with the sun to read by its light.
We’re left with fewer boxes than we had thought. How, how to price them? $3.99 per pint.
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