"It is difficult to get the news from poems yet men die miserably every day for lack of what is found there"

Just now I sat at my kitchen table, eating saag paneer and yogurt and sauteed carrots and reading a book of poems. Flipping through the book of poems, to be accurate, letting serendipity dictate which ones I ended up reading. A word here and there –ghost, twilight, firefly, road– the sort of word I’m inexorably drawn to, would catch my eye and then I would stop and read the poem.

In the early morning, every morning, I read a few poems. Three, usually. Sometimes I trawl the internet for poems, typing a few catch words into Mr. Google and seeing what the tide tosses up on the beach.

Some days are dry and stunted. No poems appear, or maybe my mind is a desert that day, unable to see glints in the sand.

Other days a friend will send me a poem I’ve never seen before, by a poet I’ve never heard of, and it will hit me like a shock wave, that enormous jolt that Miss Dickinson described as feeling as if the top of her head had come off. And when I hunt down that new poet, each poem I read shocks me anew.

And that new poet leads to other new poets. One shining poem after another, all cut and pasted into my poetry files. Thousands and thousands of poems I’ve saved over the years. Sometimes I go back twelve or more years, just to see what poems I loved back then, to see if my taste has changed.

Nope. The thing is, if I loved a poem back then, I still love that poem. Same with music. Same with art. Same with people, most of them anyway. I am not a fickle lover.

I don’t remember liking poetry when I was little. Back then it came in the form of limericks and doggerel and jingly ads. The ending words of every line rhymed. The meter was rigid, a prison of rhythm that forced you to recite the poem with Sousa-like precision.

If poetry didn’t come in the form of limericks and doggerel and the occasional haiku, it was so formal, with apostrophes in weird places and half-words like ’tis and ‘ere and o’er, not to mention a lack of thingness –literal thingness, as in things that you can see and touch– that my eyes glazed over.

I was little. I was untutored. I was semi-feral. If I wasn’t making forts in the hay barn or escaping into the treehouse that only I was able to haul myself into, I was reading novels or one of the hundreds of biographies about the Childhoods of Famous Americans that the library stocked.

The only thing I remember, about poetry, is that my grandfather used to recite it to us. He was a dairy farmer who didn’t graduate high school, but he knew a lot of poetry by heart. Long poems, which he would recite spontaneously, in the living room, in their entirety.

I don’t remember reading poetry in high school, unless you count the Rod McKuen and Susan Polis Schutz paperbacks that everyone carried around back then, and I don’t.

I don’t remember studying poetry in college either –I was a Chinese Studies major– unless you count the Chaucer-Milton-Shakespeare class I took freshman year, and I do. The teacher had us take turns reading the Canterbury Tales aloud, in middle English, and I loved that.

If I didn’t think about what I was reading, if I just let the strange words form themselves on my tongue, they rolled right out. It was as if I’d been speaking middle English my whole life. Reading them aloud, you could hear the music and laughter and enormous intelligence behind those bawdy tales.

For my 21st birthday my brilliant mathematician friend Doc gave me a book of poetry by John Ashbery. I puzzled over that book for a long time. Mostly because I wanted to be worthy of the poetry book that Doc, whom I adored, had picked out for me. So little of it made any sense to me, untutored and semi-feral poetry reader that I still was at that point.

But these lines made me shiver, and I memorized them. They still make me shiver:

    Mostly I think of feelings, they fill up my life
      Like the wind, like tumbling clouds
    In a sky full of clouds, clouds upon clouds.

Like tumbling clouds in a sky full of clouds, clouds upon clouds. From those few lines in that book which, because my beloved Doc had given it to me, I read and read, searching for meaning, I learned the power of words repeated upon themselves.

In a sky full of clouds, clouds upon clouds. This was something that no Childhood of A Famous American, no matter how many dozens of them I tossed down like after-dinner mints back then, could teach me.

By the time I moved to Minneapolis at age 26 I must have turned the poetry corner. I know this because I remember standing in line in Calhoun Square with a paperback book of poetry clutched to my chest, waiting patiently for the woman who wrote the book to autograph it for me. I was getting up at dawn every day back then, writing my stories, not one of which would be published.

There was a poem in the book I was holding that haunted me. It still haunts me. The ending line especially, the italicized fierceness of it: Sister, there is nothing I would not do. That line stayed in my head for years.

It’s still in my head. Years ago it became part of my bones and blood and heart. One day, years after I first read that line, my friend GE and I were walking along the Mississippi River.

“Some people are still water,” he said, “and others are moving water.”

I didn’t know exactly what he meant –GE is a little Ashbery-esque himself– but still, I knew that he was right. In that same moment the line from the poem —Sister, there is nothing I would not do– came haunting back into my head. The next day I began to write All Rivers Flow to the Sea, which is a book about sisters, and which I wrote in the form of moving water.

So there I was, in my 20’s, waiting in line at Calhoun Square for the darkhaired, friendly woman sitting at the table they’d set up in the courtyard there to sign my book for me. She was there to sign another book, a newly-published, different book, a novel, but when I got to the table she took the little paperback poetry book and smiled at it.

“Jacklight,” she said. “I love that you brought this.”

She looked up at me and met my eyes. She looked at me for what felt like a long moment. Then she picked up her pen and wrote something in the book and handed it back to me.

For she who enters the deep woods.

It was one of those rare moments in life, a moment when a stranger looks at you and sees something in you. Recognizes something in you, a fellow traveler. That line has been with me ever since, carried in my heart and also in that little paperback that has journeyed with me everywhere I’ve moved since that day.

Just now I was running upstairs to get some socks and I looked to the right, where a series of original sketches from the picture book most close to my heart hangs on the wall. Sometimes my own obtuseness stuns me, and this was one of those times. Look at this sketch, will you?

The line from Someday, the book that accompanies the sketch (by the wondrous Peter Reynolds) is “Someday you will enter a deep wood.”

That I didn’t consciously connect that line with the one the poet scribbled in my book so long ago doesn’t surprise me, because I’m a dolt, yes, but also because I have learned that those rare things, including those rare people, that you love completely and utterly the minute you see them, don’t ever go away. They migrate into your heart and become part of you.

(I just mis-typed the last part of that previous sentence, so that before I corrected it, it read “They migrate into your heart and become art of you.” Both sentences are true.)

I’ve never formally studied poetry, but knowledge of it has seeped into me by osmosis, the reading and reading and reading of beautiful poems. Giving myself poetry assignments –write a picture book in the form of a sestina, write a villanelle that contains a river flowing north, write a pantoum, write a free verse poem that begins with Carver’s question “Did you get what you wanted from this life?”– has been an education unto itself.

Once I sat in a lecture listening to a novelist talk about the two types of writers, those who were writers of story and those who were writers of language. I turned to the writer I was sitting next to.

“You’re a story teller,” I said.

“And you’re language,” she said.

I was right, and so was she. To this day plot is my weakness, story my weakness, not that I don’t like a good story, but I would prostitute myself for beautiful language, story be damned. This is why a novel that reads like poetry is my ideal novel. This is why I love the reviewer who wrote, “She’s a poet who writes novels.” This is why poetry is my ideal, period.

Long ago –fifteen years now?– I started choosing one poem a week and sending it to a few friends: “Poem of the Week.” Those few friends began forwarding them to a few friends, who sometimes asked to be put on the original mailing list. The list began to grow. Now it numbers in the many hundreds. Most of the recipients are people I don’t know, some of whom live in other countries halfway around the world.

Once a week or so a poem boomerangs back, the recipient having thought she was forwarding it to someone else but mistakenly sending it back to me. Sometimes, from the forwarded email, I see that the sender is sending it on to dozens of others, forming her own poem of the week list. In this way I know that the poems are seeding themselves, spreading far and wide like apple seeds.

Some of the poems I send are by famous writers, most are by lesser-known poets. The only criterion I have for the poem of the week is that I have to love it. Any other reason for sending a poem out would muddy the waters, and poetry is one part of my life that I will not muddy.

A few weeks ago I told my students to memorize a poem to recite in class next week.

“The only rule is that it has to be a poem you love,” I said. “It doesn’t have to be more than a couple lines long, but you have to love it.”

That way, when they memorize the poem, it will become part of them. A gift that they can carry within themselves forever, always available.

  Mostly I think of feelings, they fill up my life
      Like the wind, like tumbling clouds
    In a sky full of clouds, clouds upon clouds.


  1. oreo · September 30, 2012

    believe it or not, a couple of days ago i was reading the quote that makes up your blog title and resolved to email it to you. guess you took take care of that item on my mental to-do list.

    speaking of the canterbury tales, did you know that’s how my love wooed me? along with bringing me a bottle of wine, flowers, and a scrabble board, he quoted me passages from the canterbury tales he had memorized in high school decades before. in that deep lovely voice. what defenses had i against such a man? none, luckily.

    if i still had that bottle of wine, i would raise a glass and toast you, the one who made me into someone who would also prostitute herself for beautiful language.

    so basically it’s your fault that i fell for him. just kidding. it’s only your fault that i stay up way too late at night looking for beautiful language. you led me into the deep woods.


  2. Nicole · September 30, 2012

    this was a beautiful post. so in-depth and really shows your wonderful history and evolution with poetry.

    It also inspired me to read more poetry. I have the poets I like. That I think I’ve liked since high school… and beyond that, I never expand. I love reading your poems that you post weekly because it leads me to actually read poetry that I would never otherwise do. So, it keeps me exposed and I appreciate that. This post inspired me to go deeper. To seek out more poems. To pick up poetry books now and again. To try and explore. I explore so much literature, but so frequently ignore poetry…

    thank you for this one 🙂


  3. alison · October 1, 2012

    Oreo, I love that he wooed you with Chaucer. Doesn’t surprise me. And if it’s my fault that you ended up with him, I happily accept that blame. XO


  4. alison · October 1, 2012

    Nicole, I know from your Goodreads postings that you’re a huge reader and I so appreciate that. And if the poems of the week are valuable to you, then that makes me even happier. XO


    • Shamla of Shamballa · April 30, 2022

      Beloved Alison Mcghee

      I found your site this morning. It is the 30th April 2022. New Moon in Taurus. The date makes The Number 13 – for The 13th Sacred Key – The LAW OF LOVE.

      Love connected me to you today.

      From the moment I began reading this post, till the end my soul was poised in celebration.

      I am using this space to connect with you. I hope it works…

      In divine love and golden light
      Shamla of Shamballa

      Liked by 1 person

  5. ZeeDriz · October 1, 2012

    It’s so good to have this Alison blog to read on a night that feels like poetry.

    I ran across the booklet of Found Poetry that my college writing kids made using Rainlight, and I will argue–gently–that it is a novel where plot and poetry walk beside each other as equals. Since you real writers don’t read your own stuff (big mistake!), perhaps you’ll just have to take my word for it.


  6. Tessa · October 21, 2012

    Wow. I loved this piece. Loved it. Thank you. I am a lover of language.


  7. Cassandra Lin · March 8, 2013

    I was searching on those lines of Ashbery’s and came across this post, which is a beautiful piece of writing in itself and made me think, well, I must look for her novels. And then looking at your books page I see you are in part responsible for some of my 3-yr-old daughter’s favourite books (the Bink and Gollie), and so I had to tell you how much joy you’ve brought into her life with them, and how I now look very much forward to reading your other work.


  8. alison · March 8, 2013

    Dear Cassandra, what a nice note! I’m so glad that your daughter loves the B&G books. The “novelist” I refer to in this post, the one I was sitting next to at the language/story lecture, is Kate, the writer I wrote the B&G books with. Tell your daughter I said “Greetings,” and I hope you enjoy the novels.


  9. Steve · August 7, 2013

    The quote from Williams’ “Asphodel” is ” . . . yet men die miserably every day for lack . . .”


  10. alison · August 7, 2013

    Steve, thank you! I’m grateful to have the correct quote.


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