I’ve driven the Mexi-Cali border its full length many times, slowed and stopped for border patrol checks many times. I can predict the drivers whose vehicles will be pulled over and inspected. They usually don’t look like me, which is itself a problem.

Then came Kansas, a few months ago. Cops pulled me over for fictitious reasons and asked a series of questions–are you concealing a kidnapped child; are you concealing rocket launchers; are you transporting fentanyl and methamphetamines across state lines–that would have been laughable if the men standing next to my rolled-down window hadn’t been so flat-eyed and humorless. If they hadn’t been carrying guns and badges. If I hadn’t known no one would know if they chose to do something awful to me.

But here’s the thing: we can choose to turn off the lights and sirens. We can choose not to scare each other. We can choose to be the safe harbor, the soft landing, the helping hand. If not now, then when? See you at the protests.

After Second Shift, by Lowell Jaeger

She’s stopped to shop for groceries.
Her snow boots sloshing
up and down the aisles, the store
deserted: couple stock boys
droning through cases of canned goods,
one sleepy checker at the till.

In the parking lot, an elderly man
stands mumbling outside his sedan,
all four doors wide to gusting sleet
and ice. She asks him, Are you okay?
He’s wearing pajama pants, torn slippers,
rumpled sport coat, knit wool hat.

Says he’s waiting for his wife.
I just talked to her on the payphone
over there. He’s pointing at
the Coke machine. What payphone?
she says. That one, he says.
It’s cold, she says, and escorts him inside.

Don’t come with lights
and sirens, she tells the 9-1-1
dispatcher. You’ll scare him.

They stand together. The checker
brings him a cup of coffee.
They talk about the snow.

So much snow.
They watch for the cop.
This night, black as any night,
or a bit less so.

Click here for more information about poet Lowell Jaeger. Today’s poem appeared in Or Maybe I Drift Off Alone, published in 2016 by Shabda Press. 

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